Embracing Womb Healing: Overcoming PMDD, Reconnecting with Feminine Energy, and Healing Ancestral Traumas

Discover the transformative journey of womb healing and feminine empowerment as I recount my struggles with PMDD and how inadequate sex education left me feeling disconnected from my own body. Did traditional medical approaches really address the root causes, or did they simply offer band-aid solutions? Join me as I challenge the patriarchal narrative that discourages women from embracing their feminine energy and explore the interconnectedness of women's health issues.

Uncover the healing potential of embracing feminine energy and practices like yoni steaming, as we confront the "witch wound"—a symbol of historical and societal pressures that have suppressed the power of the feminine. Could inherited trauma be affecting modern women's health? Dive into the world of epigenetics and learn how the traumas of our ancestors might shape our present experiences. Together, we explore reclaiming our power through womb clearing and living harmoniously with our natural cycles, bringing balance to both body and spirit.

Join the conversation about how connecting with your maternal lineage and addressing generational traumas can foster emotional well-being and reproductive health. Could embracing womb clearing practices be the key to breaking cycles of pain and disempowerment, not just for ourselves but for future generations? As I shift towards a more fluid and intuitive approach to life and content creation, I invite you to share your experiences and engage with me on this empowering journey. Let's reconnect with our feminine energy and inspire a collective transformation.

Chapters

• 0:00 Womb Healing and Feminine Health
• 8:39 Healing Witch Wounds With Womb Clearing
• 17:00 Healing Generational Wounds Through Womb Clearing
• 26:22 Navigating Feminine Flow and Inspiration

Transcript

Speaker 1: 0:00

Hello and welcome back. Today we are going to be talking all about wombs. So if you're a person with a womb, welcome, we're going to be talking all about it. So today I kind of wanted just to share my story about womb healing, why it's important in respect of ancestral trauma, why it's so important that we reconnect to this part of us, because, especially as women, we are completely told not to fucking do it. So, yeah, this is me radically speaking out against the patriarchy, and I normally hate being like associated with a radical feminist because I'm not. I always just believe in equality and would never describe myself as a feminist, but there will be some sort of feminist theme throughout this, throughout this podcast.

Speaker 1: 0:43

So I want to start with like my sex, my sex education. Right, I was never, ever talked about like my vagina as a place for pleasure. I was always told it was just kind of like be menstruate and that's it. We were. You know you, it's a bit like that. Mean Girls quote you if you have sex, you will get pregnant and die. It was kind of of a bit like that. The only thing I was ever shown as well was like I remember one day after PE, we went into the changing rooms as girls and we had this banana and we had to try and put a condom on it. It was literally the most horrific thing that I ever had to experience in my entire fucking life and this was my sex education.

Speaker 1: 1:21

Right, me and my mum didn't have the type of relationship where we would talk about sex. Like we don't talk about sexual relationships. Even now and I'm like 32, I'm an adult we still don't talk about it. I never told her when I had my first time. I never was told what the first time should be. Like I kind of learned it all and it just wasn't yeah, it just wasn't really good. Like I learned that having sex was just how to make people like you in a way, you know, like that's how you felt love, that's how you got love. But that was so, so untrue. And when I was growing up, I used to feel so cringed like I would never go in and buy any period products. I would never you'd never catch me dead, even in.

Speaker 1: 2:04

Even up until like a couple of years ago, I was like, oh, I feel embarrassed that I met, that I menstruate, like that's just basically it, and I kind of felt so disconnected to this part of my body right and this means I was completely disconnected from my feminine. I was constantly working, getting really really stressed out, having debilitating periods, having things which were not great at all, like I was having really heavy periods. Obviously I had a miscarriage. There were so many different things that were going on for me. Like I ended up being diagnosed with PMDD, which is a completely awful disorder, so it's called premenstrual dysphoric disorder and it's a severe form of PMS. So you can basically hit the luteal phase of your cycle and become a fucking psychopath.

Speaker 1: 2:50

Okay, so you, so some of the emotional stuff would be like I would have severe depression. I would actually almost feel like suicidal, like I would really want to harm myself, like the whole. Like seven to 10 days before my period I'd be really anxious, like super, super anxious. I'd be really irritable, I wouldn't be able to concentrate, I'd have like brain fog, I'd lose interest in everything. And you know that's without the chronic fatigue, the low energy levels, sleep disturbances, so like I'd wanna sleep all the time, changes in appetite. I would eat and eat and eat and just not feel full, full. I'd be bloated for the full 10 days. You know breast tenderness, headaches, muscle pain, joint pain, even hot flashes like I would have, like like proper hot flashes.

Speaker 1: 3:34

So the only thing like the doctors kind of gave me were antidepressants. I'm going to be honest, antidepressants did save my life because I don't think I would have been able to have maintained the whole process if I hadn't gone on antidepressants. Like going through that every three weeks, you know, every two to three weeks of your cycle you're going through this is is absolutely horrific. So I had this. Nobody ever spoke to me about it, nobody ever told me what like premenstrual symptoms would be like and yeah. So I kind of was always told oh, you're normal, you're normal, you're normal.

Speaker 1: 4:05

And when I was younger I went to the doctors for heavy periods and they didn't speak to me about the causation of heavy periods or any of that. Any of that. They were like oh, just go on contraception, go on contraception. And contraception now makes I like I cannot be on contraception now because it makes my PMDD so much worse. Um, so I'm not on contraception and I actively choose not to go on contraception because I don't like the way my body feels when I'm on it, when I've thought of the treatment.

Speaker 1: 4:33

Basically, the doctor was like you're a childbearing age, so the only other thing you can have is a hysterectomy, or you can, yeah, just go on the hormonal coil and then have patches as well, and this works for some people. But I'm like my body is already having an extreme reaction to a regular hormone cycle. Why are we adding more hormones in to mitigate the hormones my body can't already handle? This is part of a wider health issue for me where my thyroid really completely crashed when I was 23. So after years of chronic stress, anxiety, all of that type of stuff, my body being in a critical you know, extreme stress thing for most of my life that my thyroid just kind of give up, and then that was like a hormonal issue. Now I'm having this PMDD, which is also a hormonal issue, right, and the doctors will tell you that it is basically uh like nothing to do with one another and I'm like well, two hormonal issues and also I'm pre-diabetic as well, so my body struggles to regulate insulin.

Speaker 1: 5:37

So tell me again why like this is not all connected, and my personal opinion of the medical system is that it's brilliant. We have the NHS, like how amazing is that? And I know that they work really, really hard and the staff are amazing, but in terms of western medicine as a whole, I feel like we are really behind. We don't like we don't look at women's health through the through the lens of a woman, like it always feels like medicine is based around men. And you know, I had blood tests done recently and my doctor was like, oh, you're all fine. And I spoke to a functional medicine woman and she was like, well, um, actually, your, your vitamin d is really low, your iron is really low, and this would explain why your hair is falling out, why you feel like this or whatever. So I'm going on a journey to kind of fix my thyroid and fix my sex hormones. That's what I'm doing now.

Speaker 1: 6:26

But I also feel like when I was younger, if I had had access to this information about you know being a woman, why my body is so different to a man's, all of this type of stuff if I had more education, I probably would have been able to prevent some of these health issues that are going on. So this, for me, could have been preventable, which is the most difficult part to accept, and a lot of it is all around the womb right, and this is why we're here today we're talking about womb clearing. So I've done a lot. Um, I've done a lot this year, a lot this god couple of years around clearing trauma and around clearing, like sexual trauma, clearing all of this stuff because I absolutely needed to in order to unblock where I was. My body was gaining weight as a form of protection because it was so.

Speaker 1: 7:14

I was so afraid to be seen and there was all of this stuff and I'm probably being way too vulnerable on this podcast right now, but yeah, it's out there and I just hope that if people are listening there's like you know, people resonate in terms of like not having a good sexual health experience, like where they were taught properly when they were younger by their parents, whatever. Like when I work with clients, one of the most common things that I um see is women saying like they wish that their parents had had the, the talk with them about menstruation and because we didn't have that conversation between me and my mum or with anybody. I kind of just felt like this was this thing that we never really talked about and I always used to hate my period, like I used to violently hate it because I knew it would come. I'd be in pain, like when I get my periods, I used to have like immense pain and then, like I would go into like a huge flush of like heat and I'd have to take codeine for three days, like I have really heavy periods, like that's without all the other stuff that I was going through, and then I'd have to go into work, go into an office and just be like bleeding through my clothes and I know that's really really graphic for some people. But yeah, that's the reality of what it is when you have problems with your menstrual cycle and I have a regular menstrual cycle. I don't have PCOS, I don't have endometriosis, I don't have other, I don't have fibroids, I don't have other issues, okay.

Speaker 1: 8:39

But what I was doing when I was going through my healing journey is I was healing my wound without actually focusing on it. So, for example, I would do yoni steaming. Yoni steaming is basically steaming your vagina with water and with, like hot water and herbs, and this has actually been done for like ancestors, like ancestors upon ancestors have done this to treat regular, regular problems that were happening in terms of, like your ph level, in terms of like all of this different stuff that can happen for you. Also, yoni steaming was used to release trauma as well, which I think, again, really, really important. So, as women, our emotions will always get stuck in our hips. So as the body holds on to stress or trauma, it can manifest in physical tension, and you know where we're thinking about things like sexual trauma. We're thinking about societal pressure, history of women in terms of oppression, the witch wound as well, which I feel like not many people talk about. I see it more and more on social media now, but, yeah, I definitely feel like the witch wound is a thing.

Speaker 1: 9:49

So the term witch wound often refers to the psychological, emotional and spiritual trauma that women may carry as a result of the persecution, oppression and societal conditions of witchcraft and the feminine. This is where I feel like, you know, I kind of see this in other cultures and I'm not trying to compare in any way, shape or form, but when we have slavery, the slaves had voodoo. Ok, they had voodoo. And then what did the slave masters do? They made voodoo. Okay, they had voodoo, and then what did the slave masters do? They made voodoo into an evil thing. This was to disempower the slaves, to be you know, for them to be able to call back in their power.

Speaker 1: 10:24

Yeah, and it's a similar situation with this, like women were accused of rich, of witches, they were oppressed, they were socially conditioned and they were disconnected from the feminine. Because the energy is super, super, super, super historic and it's fundamental within us, but it's just been oppressed and I've just noticed, over like the last, you know, couple of centuries, the way that we go now is that women are in the hyper masculine state and very disconnected from their feminine and some women don't even know what masculine feminine energy is. Because of that, when we're talking about, like the suppression of feminine power, this is what the witch wound like reflects, because it's a broader societal pattern of suppressing women and their intuition and their autonomy. Remember, witches were just medicine women. You know they were following their intuition. They may have had spiritual powers or you know they may have been psychic or whatever you know, we don't really know, but it just, you know, just feels that narrative that women's voices and abilities need to be oppressed.

Speaker 1: 11:25

And I just think as well, when women have, like this witch wound and I feel like women have it as a collective, we have that internalized fear, like we're worried about being judged, persecuted, we reject expressing our authentic selves, particularly like being disconnected from our intuition, creativity and power. I see this in all the clients that I work with. I see like there's shame and guilt, um around femininity, around desires, around spiritual practices where I can't come out and say I'm I'm a witch, or I'm this or I'm that, because people will judge me, they'll persecute me. You know, women may struggle with feelings of unworthiness or inadequacy, and this has been something that's been coming through their family line. Don't forget, trauma is not just passed down in the teachings, it's passed down by your DNA. We know this because of the study of epigenetics, which showed that holocaust survivors passed on their symptoms of ill health and emotional trauma down to their children and even their grandchildren. Ok, and that is a really significant example, but it's a very good demonstration in which that we can pull on the knowledge of. You know, epigenetics is a real thing. It's a real, real thing where we are passing things down from our dna.

Speaker 1: 12:40

So when we are thinking about the witch wound and healing the witch wound, it's about being divine, feminine. We don't want to be wounded. Feminine, we want to be divine, we want to be embraced in our intuition, we want to be creative, we want to have empowerment. We want to explore our spiritual gifts, bring them back, whether that's connection to spirituality, witchcraft, whatever it is. It could just be enjoying the moon phases. It could be just living in in your cycle, like you know. For example, like when you're having a period, you should be resting. When you're in ovulation, you should be the most outgoing, attending events or doing whatever it could be resting. When you're in ovulation you should be the most outgoing, attending events or doing whatever it could be. Living like that, you know.

Speaker 1: 13:18

And feminine empowerment it's all about reclaiming your power and that's what womb clearing does, because what we're doing is we're hanging on to the womb clearing, we're hanging on to all the emotions and stuff that are stuck in our hips, which you know is caused from repression of emotions, from fear and anxiety. You know stuff gets stuck in our sacral chakra, which is where this is the hub of creativity, sexuality and emotions. And if we are not connected and often I see this with clients is like they have their heart open but their sacral is not connected to their heart, so the emotions can come up and leave and you know this could be causing areas in that Also, we may have stuff in the root chakra as well, where we could have feelings of being insecure or ungrounded, and then this can manifest as tightness in the hips and the lower body. And guess what? Hips and the lower body. And guess what? If you spent your whole childhood feeling unstable or or insecure, guess what? You're gonna have problems with your hips and your legs or your lower body, but also you're gonna have trauma stuck in your hips. Okay, so when we are talking about all of this stuff, it links in in so many different ways so I feel like I'm dotting all over the place today.

Speaker 1: 14:32

But when we're thinking about, like, womb healing, clearing, healing and clearing, healing and clearing oh my god, it's something that is on an emotional, physical and spiritual level. You can't separate them because they all intertwine with one another. But what your womb is is the ancestral portal. What your womb is is the ancestral portal. This is where life is created. You were created in a womb. When you were in the womb, you would have experienced everything your mother did so if she had high periods of stress, maybe she worried about money, maybe she was in a car accident, maybe something happened beyond her control, with all of that, she was. You know you're feeling all that inside of her. And guess what, when you were in your mother's was? You know you're feeling all that inside of her and guess what? When you were in your mother's tummy you would have had all the eggs that you will ever have in your life in you as a fetus in your mother's tummy. So that means that your daughter, your son, was in your mother. So, yeah, like you were in your grandmother. So I know it's a completely mind-blowing thing to think of.

Speaker 1: 15:34

So when we think about physically, that's what's happening on a genetic DNA level, then emotional level. You know when, when you're in the, in the womb and everything's going a bit wrong and you're experiencing high levels of cortisol, you're taking on your mom's trauma. That's, sperm will change throughout his lifetime okay, will change throughout his freaking lifetime. So he could have a traumatic event and then, like after a traumatic event, and if he doesn't do any of that healing and clearing, that will be passed down through genetics, Because the sperm changes all the way up until it is conceived and it meets the egg. So you know, whatever trauma that dad has gone through, if he's not willing to clear it, then that is being passed down as well, it's not all on mum, and also, not many people talk about this in the epigenetic world because, obviously, why would we ever hold men, men, accountable for their shit, right, yeah, but I have noticed recently there seems to be a big like collective man shift, which I'm really loving to see like people like clearing their trauma and living a happier, more healthier life. And you know, I'm really quite passionate about men's mental health because it's an issue close to me at the moment and I think, yeah, we need to be talking about it more, we need to be showing men that it's okay to heal. But anyway, that's another, another story. So we're talking more about womb clearing. So we have talked all about this.

Speaker 1: 17:00

Um, so, when we're talking about womb clearing, in terms of generational trauma, we believe that it can be passed down through family lines. We've established that from this podcast so far. Um, so issues like infertility, reproductive changes or challenges, emotional distress, may be tied to unresolved traumas experienced by ancestors. Okay, you may have collective memories, and this means that it's not only your personal memories but the memories passed down through past generations, and wound clearing practice aims to release these burdens. You know, with the feminine lineage, your maternal influence, the relationship with your mother will really really be grounded in your womb, and womb clearing helps to address the emotional weight or imbalance that's associated with the mother and the grandmother. You know, when we're clearing the feminine collective like we're healing their feminine collective, we are contributing to the wider feminine lineage and we're hoping to break those cycles of pain, trauma and disempowerment that have been carried through generations when we have our sacred feminine traditions.

Speaker 1: 18:11

In many spiritual practices the womb is considered a sacred space, like when you think of the word yoni. In Sanskrit it means sacred temple, and when we're healing the womb, it's a way to connect to this sacred energy of the feminine and to allow for release of blockages that may have been inherited. Okay, this is us to embody the feminine, to really be connected to the feminine. I have a previous podcast episode about balancing masculine feminine energy, because women nowadays are just so hyper independent, so hyper focused on being the boss bitch or hyper independence, that we are actually just in our masculine all the time. That means that we are getting burnt out, we're getting miserable, we're getting really fucked off with things right, because it's really hard for us to sit into our feminine and be in that state of flow, which I don't want to be in my masculine anymore. I'm quite firmly in my feminine. The men that I date have to be in their masculine because I, because I need to be in my feminine, that's absolutely it.

Speaker 1: 19:07

When I'm doing things in my business, it comes from a place of femininity and not masculinity, and sometimes I don don't always get it right and sometimes you have to push through with the masculine stuff sometimes. But it's about understanding how you restore yourself, how you come back to yourself in a feminine way. And, yeah, when you're doing ancestral connections through the womb like this can be so, so powerful in connecting to your ancestors, healing your ancestors, healing your family line and, you know, just creating a bit of a dialogue or healing relationship with those who came before you. Like, if you can connect spiritually to other people who have passed over, this is a perfect opportunity to link in with your ancestors and support them. You know, and support, get them to support you, even in healing your womb.

Speaker 1: 19:54

You know what we're thinking about as well is, when we are healing our womb, we're going to have better periods, we're going to reduce infertility, we're going to reduce our reproductive challenges. That's if we want to reproduce? Right, we don't have to. But when we are clearing all of these blocks and all of this emotion oh my god, like it is so a place for empowerment and reclamation. Like you reclaiming your body, when you're reclaiming that feminine power by connecting to your womb, by letting go of any shame about menstruation, about letting go of any anger or anger or upset against your womb because you may have endometriosis or pOS or whatever, you literally start to reclaim the power over your body, you reclaim autonomy, you start to confront healing the generational wounds and you break free from patterns of disempowerment. Like you are doing big, heavy things. This is a big heavy lifting, you know, because you're not just healing you, you're healing other people too. And, yeah, when we're creating new, healthier patterns for ourselves, we're clearing the line for people who come after us or for anybody who we encounter, because healing is a ripple effect.

Speaker 1: 21:01

If you talk about how you healed your painful periods, guess what? Another woman might really really benefit from that. Like they may think, oh, I might need to look into wound clearing too. I might need to look into Reiki, or I might need to look into a tarot reader or into a shamanic healer or into who the fuck knows what right, I don't know. There's so many things out there, but you then create that ripple of healing and then you help to heal their collective, because that person then might go and heal a little bit. They might tell their friend, friend, and all of a sudden you sharing your journey, or going on this journey, has influenced so many people in your immediate circle and that that spreads outwards, like do you realize how powerful that is in this world? Like we owe it to ourselves to heal ourselves. I'm really feeling like womb healing and clearing has actually been a really, really small part of what I've been doing for years. So, in terms of like what I deliver to my clients, like womb healing has always been it I've always checked, like when I do like my body scans or if I do any live healing, I always check the ovaries, I always check the womb, I always check the yoni, like I like when I'm looking in energy wise and I can tell if somebody's had a miscarriage.

Speaker 1: 22:10

I can tell if somebody's had birth trauma. I can tell if somebody has endometriosis. I could tell one time that a lady had had a hysterectomy and she hadn't told me before I had. You know, I can tell so much just by working with the energy of the womb, because it's so sacred and it carries its own energy.

Speaker 1: 22:27

I've worked with pregnant women too, like towards the end of their pregnancy, because I don't like to mess with energy in the beginning of the pregnancy personally. For me it's a no-go. I know some Reiki practitioners do try to involve themselves and, you know, do it at the start of pregnancy. I personally feel like I won't touch anybody until they're about four or five months in, because I want to make sure that the energy is established within the body. The energy of a, a baby, is really, really fragile, right? So when I've done work with women, they've been just about to give birth and clearing that anxiety of labor and making sure that they're feeling more comfortable, they're more at home, confronting stuff like the grief of letting go of the previous version of them.

Speaker 1: 23:10

So much stuff, so much stuff has come. I've worked with women who have had. Much stuff has come. I've worked with women who have had miscarriages. I've worked with women who've had terminations. I've worked with all of these women, all you know, and this is just a small part of what I've been doing for years, but I kind of feel like this is a small thing and I really wanted well, not a small thing, it's a small thing in what I've been doing, but this is something I really wanted to highlight lately and just to kind of express like thoughts, feelings around it, because I feel like not many people openly have these conversations, because it's really vulnerable, it's really scary, it's, you know, especially if you carry shame around menstruation.

Speaker 1: 23:46

You know you can you create a shame about being a woman. Maybe something happened to you when you were younger and that kind of created shame. Maybe you had a really shitty partner that would shame you in your intimate relationships and that's kind of left a mark on you. Like we are all human and you know, when we think about that, was it? One in three women will experience sexual assault in their lifetime like that's a really, really big thing to carry around as women and as we carry it around, we will, we'll just hold that in our hips and in our womb and that creates so many problems for us.

Speaker 1: 24:20

And you know what? Like sometimes I feel like I feel like saying to people like do you know what? You've already lived through the through the thing once? You do deserve to heal. Now you do deserve to move on from this, because the only person who's struggling is you, and I've had to say this to myself in times where I've been like I really don't want to do this, I really don't want to do this healing process. And actually, when I've gone and I've like healed my own sexual trauma because everybody, in my opinion, has some form of sexual trauma right, we've all maybe been in relationships where we didn't want to say yes all the time or we've kind of gone along with things and then regretted it after. You know.

Speaker 1: 24:55

You may have had a one-night stand and then experienced extreme grief the next day, like that's, because you created a soul tie through your intimate interaction with somebody and then you lost them and they ghosted you and then your body's going into grief and if you already have a big grief cup, guess what it's going to feel like shit. So you see how this intertwines with so many areas of our life, and I haven't even got started in how this shows up in your business, how this shows up in your job, how this shows up in your romantic relationships. I'm just talking about you right now. So this is a big topic and I'll probably talk more on this, but I just felt like I really wanted to use my voice today. I'm'm sat down like 15, 15, um. I'm sat down like, yeah, just using my voice today on this, because I feel like I really wanted to talk about it and, um, yeah, hope that made sense, hope that kind of gave some insight.

Speaker 1: 25:48

You might think this is all bullshit and that's fine, but you can look at the study of epigenetics. That's a scientific study of how dna gets passed down. You can have a look at emotional stuff and how it turns into physical ailments. There's been so much work around this in terms of cancers and things like that about how emotions being stuck in the body will show up as physical ailments. If I always rave about this book but louise, hey, you, you Can Heal your Life was the real big gate opener, I guess, into me understanding emotions manifesting in physical illness and I can tell you now she's never wrong.

Speaker 1: 26:22

And yeah, that's kind of me for today. I will be moving more into this type of content over the next few weeks because there'll be something coming, I think. I don't know. I just feel really inspired by this at the moment, so I'm going to go with it and you know, this is what you do when you work in the feminine. You don't always have a plan right. You just go with the flow and you just fucking hope for the best. But yeah, as always, if this has sparked any interest in you, any thoughts, feelings, comments, come find me on instagram. Let's chat or even send me an email, and if you need anything at all, just let me know. I'm here, sending you loads of love. Bye.