Healing the Witch Wound: Unravelling Historical Trauma, Embracing Spiritual Gifts, and Navigating Ancestral Healing

Ever wondered why the word "witch" carries so much weight and stigma? Journey with us as we uncover the deep-rooted historical trauma known as the "witch wound." We'll explore how centuries of persecution during events like the European and Salem witch trials have shaped modern perceptions, leaving an imprint on collective consciousness. The trials may be long past, but their legacy of shame, suppression, and fear continues to echo, manifesting as a disconnection from femininity and intuition. Through our discussion, we aim to unravel these threads of trauma and examine how they still haunt those exploring spiritual practices today.

As we navigate the pathways of healing, we delve into the profound impact these inherited traumas have on women's self-worth and their quest for authenticity. Sharing personal journeys and experiences, we highlight the compounded layers of trauma not only from witch trials but also from systemic oppression that has long stifled women's voices. By addressing these ancestral wounds, we strive to empower women to embrace their spiritual gifts confidently and without fear of criticism. It's about reclaiming the lost parts of ourselves and breaking free from intergenerational patterns.

Our conversation doesn't stop at acknowledging the wound—we offer tools for healing. From shadow work to womb healing, and the rituals that support these practices, we provide practical guidance to help navigate this complex journey. We emphasize the importance of seeking guidance from mentors and engaging in spiritual practices that resonate. Join us as we explore the transformative power of ancestral healing, encouraging self-compassion and confidence as we collectively move toward growth and liberation.

Chapters

• 0:00 The Witch Wound and Historical Trauma
• 11:33 Healing the Witch Wound
• 16:36 Healing Witch Wound and Ancestral Trauma
• 27:42 Navigating Ancestral Healing and Rituals

Transcript

Speaker 1: 0:00

Hello everyone, welcome back to this week's episode. Today we're going to be talking all about the witch wound. Okay, we're going to be talking about how this affects your ancestral trauma, your inner child, healing and how wound clearing and all of that type of stuff can be really beneficial in dealing with the witch wound. Okay, so the witch wound, even the word witch, carries a stigma, even to like this day. So when we talk about witch, you know we don't ever use it in a positive way, like you know, when we say, oh, he's such a wizard with that, amazing. But then when we are like talking nervously about a woman, you might go, oh, she's a bit of a witch and describe somebody like that. There may be a stigma of like the wizard of Oz, where we have the green skin and the pointy hat and the wart on the nose. You know we're coming up to Halloween, many of us will dress up as witches, or many children will dress up as witches. But the witch wound carries a more sinister and upsetting undercurrent, I guess. And with the witch wound we're talking about the psychological and emotional spiritual trauma inherited from historical events like the witch hunts, the persecutions, and predominantly targeting women across Europe and America. Obviously. Everybody who's anybody has heard about the Salem witch trials, where women were often accused and murdered even though there was no evidence to suggest that they were actual witches causing harm to others. Now, witch trials happened everywhere. You can google your hometown and be like did witch trials happen in Wales? Did they happen in Ireland? Did they happen in England? Did they happen in Scotland? Did they happen in God knows wherever you are? Absolutely yes, yes, they do. Yes, they did.

Speaker 1: 1:46

And I want to just highlight as well, like, when we're talking about witch wounds, we are talking about witches still in existence today. There are still witches active in Africa, where people are you know they are witches and they end up being seriously hurt or they end up seriously being like murdered because they are defined as a witch. So this is still happening in parts of the world where people are still fearing witches and see them as a root of all evil. Like witches would have to have a sacred relationship with satan. They were not god fearing and actually, like when we go back to like witch trials, children were used to testify against their adult parents or peers or whatever. So when we think about the historical witch hunts, we often think about Europe. So Germany, like there was this book that came out by a monk in Germany that really led the European one. And then North America, where we talk about Salem.

Speaker 1: 2:50

So this wound is rooted in the collective memory and passed down through generations and generations to individuals on a subconscious level. Like we have talked about epigenetics on this podcast before, even in the last episode we are talking about how trauma gets passed down through ourselves, through our dna. Okay, and when we are talking about the witch wound, it can manifest as like shame, suppression, don't want to use our voice, don't want to be seen. You know, little girls are seen and not huge, okay, and with this it really locks us off from our femininity, which is our intuition, our inner wisdom, our spiritual practices. That will all fall outside that mainstream norm which would basically make us really, really fucking powerful.

Speaker 1: 3:35

Right, and I often see like it's nowhere near the same and I'm not trying to like compare, but basically when slaves were enslaved, they kind of practiced voodoo yeah, this give them their empowerment, this give them a sense of power and control. So what did the slave owners do? They made it into a really bad thing. They made it evil. Now, in every bloody film that you see. That's a horror. There's obviously some voodoo or black magic in there, which is all associated. Of course, there is a dark side of voodoo, but actually voodoo comes from working with love and the intention of using things that were available to you. The reason why bones are featured in voodoo is because chicken bones were the only things that were available to people during slave times, which would mean that they could use this as tools of divination. Okay, so vo. So voodoo gets a bad rap, and I've talked about this a hundred times on this podcast before. It does really get a bad rap. Of course, there's a negative side to it, but guess what? There's a negative side to every religion, to every form of spirituality. There's always going to be a subset of group, because when there's light, there's always dark. That's just how it exists, right?

Speaker 1: 4:46

So during the european witch trials between the 15th and 18th century and the salem witch trials in the us, tens of thousands of women as well as men were accused of witchcraft, and many were tortured, executed or ostracized, and we're talking about some of, like, the most barbaric ways of torture as well. Okay, women were tortured to a point where they would sometimes just confess just to get their punishment to stop right. They were absolutely barbaric and this was seen as a way to deter other people from engaging in witchcraft. Okay, so some of them. So for the next few minutes I'm going to talk about some of the difficult and horrible things that women went through. Old men and women went through during the witch trials all across Europe and in Salem, which is the most well known.

Speaker 1: 5:31

So there would be reverse hanning, so women would be hung up, often with their hands tied behind, their wrists lifted off the ground, and the body weight would cause immense pain in the shoulders which could lead to dislocation. This was a frequent method, often to extract confessions and, to be honest, if I was hanging upside down with my arms behind my back and I was in immense pain, I probably would say anything just to get out of that. I'm sure you can feel that too. Thumb screws so this was a device designed to crush the thumb or finger. So they were placed between two metal bars and the screw would be tightened, causing excruciating pain and crushing the finger or thumb. The rack this was a wooden frame with rollers at both ends. The victim's hands and feet were tied to ropes and the rollers as they were turned, the body would be stretched and caused, uh, intense pain and the joint muscles often leading to dislocations.

Speaker 1: 6:31

Obviously there was no way for women to get out of this. There's no way for men to get out of this. Um, it was just absolutely barbaric. You know, when we think of these old school tortures, the swimming test, so in this test, uh, the woman would be bound and thrown into a body of water. If she floated, she would be a witch, but there because, because they would have rejected baptism. Right, if they sank, they were innocent, but they would have drowned anyway. So, like work, that one. Pricking um was also another thing. So witch hunters believed that women had a devil's mark, that it was numb and it wouldn't bleed. So professional witch pickers which is like a thing would use a sharp instrument to poke the skin of the accused, searching for marks. This practice often was relentless in poking sharp needles or knives into women over and over and over again.

Speaker 1: 7:23

Sleep deprivation one of the top tortures. I mean, if I had to again sleep deprivation, one of the top tortures, I mean, if I had to have sleep deprivation, I promise you I'll be confessing to being a witch. And they're like oh, we're not gonna let you sleep, I'll be like I'm a witch. I'm a witch, but basically I'm not trying to make fun of the situation, but yeah, they would just deprive people of sleep until their mental and physical resilience get in and they would just give in to pressure and confess.

Speaker 1: 7:47

Burning at the stake. So yeah, through execution by fire was really common and some victims were tortured beforehand by scorching or burning parts of their bodies with hot irons to induce confessions before execution. So, burning at the stake, the stake hanging, that was another way of execution and there was a mass execution um many a times where the I think it was in pendlewood, the pendle, um, the pendle, which was up north in lancaster. I believe there were 10 people hung at the same time and eight of them were women. Um, pressing, so basically crushing them with weight. So using heavy stone or weights on the chest until they crushed, basically beheading, the good old beheading. You know that's what we used to do back in the day whip someone's head off. You know it was more prevalent in countries like germany and and Scotland, but it was considered more quicker and a more dignified death, which I don't know, I don't know, and with drowning. We talked about it. So in Scandinavia and parts of Central Europe, witches were executed by drowning and obviously anybody that used the swim test that went wrong then they would be drowned as well.

Speaker 1: 9:06

So the psychological impact of that? Okay, so the executions were public. There was widespread fear and hysteria, bright like breeding. Day by day, communities watch women and sometimes men subjected to these horrific, horrific punishments, reinforcing the belief in witches to be a support, to be a complete threat to society. And often, if you were, like a family member accused of being a witch, if you rushed to that family member's aid, then you would be prosecuted too. There was even a law passed that imaginary evidence can be used in trial as well, and often many of the many of the people who stood trial and were witnesses were actually children. And, yeah, there was just so much like corruption going on there in terms of, like, the detailed stuff that the children were able to to bring, which are kind of like, above their reading level, like all of this stuff. So there was definitely some coercion in there.

Speaker 1: 10:02

Um, so this is where innocent people were killed based on, like, irrational fears, misogyny and religious extremism. Okay, like, obviously, women's oppression changes over and over and over, like, we are constantly suppressed but we change, okay, so obviously we've talked more about the historical reasons of why women may have this thing called the witch wound. Okay, so what makes a woman a witch? So, if she was a medicine woman, if she was a healer, if she was a midwife, if she was a spiritual practitioner, if she was somebody who simply didn't conform, then they were labelled as witches. So if she was also seen as maybe a bit different or independent or wise like you know, I don't need no man she would be considered to be a witch and this would lead to an accusation and which would lead to court and that would lead to execution, tests, torture, all of that type of stuff. Okay, so with the witch hunts, it's deeply connected to the control of women's autonomy. Okay, it's to suppress the feminine power and you know, like I said earlier about voodoo and slavery, when they can see a group of people gaining momentum and, you know, maybe exerting their power, this was a real, like way to be a more male-dominated system of power. Okay, this really led to a legacy of women being afraid to express their voices or intuition. You know, they don't want to be judged, marginalized or even persecuted.

Speaker 1: 11:33

Even though witch trials occurred, like centuries ago, the trauma from these events have been passed down intergenerationally. Like, if you're wondering if witch trials happened where you were, they absolutely fucking did. So there's probably in your family line somewhere who either witnessed like a witch trial, heard about the witch trial, or was actually deemed to be a witch. Okay, so with this, like it's being passed down through our DNA. That's not to mention the compounded trauma. Okay, so compounded trauma, what does that actually mean? It means layers.

Speaker 1: 12:05

Okay, so we have the compounded trauma of the witch wound, compounded with the general oppression of women and how men used to treat women like property, how women, like didn't really make a shift until the 1960s. So you know, we're talking about century upon century of oppression. Okay, of like doing our duty as a married woman, having to be married, all of this type of stuff. Okay, this is our cultural trauma of oppression and this is why, like, women really struggle with embracing their authentic selves, speaking their truth, taking up space, because guess what? This would have been like handed down from your mother, your grandmother, your great grandmother all the way back through your complete lineage in this lifetime.

Speaker 1: 12:47

Okay, so this is a create a collective wound where individuals like fear being ostracized, criticize and embracing their authentic selves okay, and this often leads to low self-worth or relict, reluctance to engage in spirituality and often considered as unconventional or like eccentric. Because, you know, we've all seen like how witches typically look, how women will embody, how they look. There are women out there today who who claim that they are a witch and they dress like one and they can often be seen as unconventional or or eccentric. You know, and when we look at, like, the key aspects of the witch wound, it's the fear of visibility women don't want to be seen. It's the subconscious fear to be, to be visible, because if we're visible, we're powerful, we're outspoken, you know, and we're stemming from the historical punishment of women who stood out, the suppression of intuition and spirituality, since healers and those with spiritual gifts were often targeted.

Speaker 1: 13:48

People with strong intuitive abilities may feel compelled to hide these aspects of themselves, and I absolutely did. For most of my life I literally didn't come out into my spirituality and I'm still coming out. I'm still in that process of coming out because as I develop, I communicate where I am and what, where I'm going and what I'm doing. But I did hide it from the stigma of what if people reject me? What if people make fun of me? What if people like don't understand where I'm coming from? What if people think I'm crazy? You could be listening, look, and I know I'm crazy. You could be listening to this podcast and be like Kirsty, you were fucking crazy anyway without your spiritual stuff, right, and I accept that and I accept that. But what for me?

Speaker 1: 14:35

Like I just kind of I had this reluctance to take up space in this area and it's taken me a long time like I gradually, like would go through and change my niche in my business quite often, because I would become deeper and deeper in my ancestral like trauma and unearthing that and seeing how that worked for me and how I could work with it and how I could clear some of it so I can be this fully expressed version of me who absolutely loves working with inner child stuff, who absolutely loves working with ancestral stuff and womb clearing. And womb clearing is like something that I've just noticed recently, like that I just do anyway, like it's kind it kind of came to me in a download that this is something I do all the time, any day, all the like with every fucking client. So, like, why am I not talking about it? And I think, like, as I go through this process of opening my voice and my unconventional opinions around womb healing, around healing the feminine, about oppression, about speaking out against really common things, I think I'm going to generate some hate from other women and I and, to be honest, there's a part of me that is really worried about that, because I don't want to, I don't want to disempower women, but but like, I feel like there are some things that happen where I'm like that's, that's not okay, hun. Like you, you just literally slap a label on it and say it's okay, but it's not. It's generational trauma. Until you recognize it, you know. So everything I do comes from a place of love and it comes from a place of kindness. I'm not going to be nice here. I'm not going to tell you what you want to hear, I'm not going to manipulate you into anything, but I am going to be kind, and being kind doesn't mean that you're always liked. Being kind means that you're going to do something for people's best interest and me educating people on what I think, what I feel, what I see in clients is, I feel, like is my duty, so that's what I will be doing. So if you're like, what is she on about? Literally, just watch my Instagram over the next month, you're going to be like what the freaking hell is going on, what the fuck? So, yeah, anyway, we're going back to the witch wound. We're going back to the witch wound.

Speaker 1: 16:36

So healing the witch wound is multifaceted, right, and I do believe there's like this trifecta of really key things of ancestral trauma, inner child healing and womb, because your womb is that portal into your ancestral, into your ancestral path, right? Okay, so when we start to really slow down and we start to, you know, acknowledge that we do potentially have a witch wound, this has been passed down now. Ancestral trauma guess what it's? It affected your mum and how she parented you as an inner, and your inner child now is growing up and realizing all this stuff. Guess what you have? The trauma that's stuck within your body, in your hips and in your womb. This is how it all fits together, okay.

Speaker 1: 17:20

So when we're healing the rich, the witch ruined, what we need to do is get back into our feminine energy and into our fully expressed feminine, which is not easy when we're in a world that is designed for men, like working nine to five is not a female thing. Working nine to five, seven days, five days a week, even, is a man's thing. Men can cope with that. With their 24-hour hormone cycle, women have 28 days. When we are on our bleed, we should literally be in bed. That's that's it. We should be resting. Our body should be resting, um.

Speaker 1: 17:49

So some of the things that you can do is, um, reconnect your intuition, express your authentic self, know what your core values are, know what you want to bring to the world and, I think as well, engaging ritual practice, your journaling, your meditation practice, speaking your truth in areas where you feel silenced or undervalued. Overcome fear about being judged by putting yourself out there and embracing your unique gifts and perspectives. This does come with a bit of confidence building as well. Right, we need to come, for we need to create that cushion of like confidence and self self-compassion before we start to put ourselves out there, because otherwise we're going to get rejected and hurt. And it's not because you're going to be rejected, but that's like look, we don't please everybody in life. There's going to be somebody who's going to think you're a fucking dickhead at some point in the life, in your life.

Speaker 1: 18:37

Many people think I am. Do I give a shit? No, I don't. And why? Because I'm comfortable with who I am and I'm really like tied into my authenticity and to my purpose and why I say the things I say. It's not because I'm a dick, it's because I truly believe in what I say. I may not always be right, but I'm always going to advocate for what I think is best, and that's it, honey, that's it. People think I'm a fucking dick, and that's fine. I don't care, it is what it is.

Speaker 1: 19:04

I highly recommend working with a coach. Um, I highly recommend working with a coach. Oh, maybe, like me, I do have something new, that brand new that's like coming out, so keep an eye on Instagram. Um, I do recommend that you engage in that more shadow work. I hate the expression shadow work because, like I know why it's called shadow work. It's those things that hide in the shadows. I get it, but I just feel like this is namely what it is. It's intergenerational trauma, it is your inner child and it is your womb space.

Speaker 1: 19:29

Being able to clear the trauma, clear the pathway, clear the energetics, clear the emotions, because not only energetic work is going to get you through this, you're going to have to do the emotional work. And guess what? If you've got physical ailments, this might even link back as well. Why, guys? Why, because if you listen to podcast, you know that emotions can cause physical illness. So this is why, when we're like, we need to deal with our core emotion right. And guess what? Our core emotion might not even be fucking yours. It could be from your ancestor who had the witch wound. It could be from your ancestor that suffered a load of verbal abuse from her husband. It can be from your entire mum's lineage of repeated patterns and relationships. Okay, this is how big this work is. Okay, and I do find it quite hard to do podcasts.

Speaker 1: 20:14

Look at like on this topic, because it's multifaceted, there's multi layers, there's so many things that could be a thing like. You could be a people pleaser because your mum was a people pleaser, or your mum treated you in a way where she was very emotionally abusive and manipulated you as she was a bit of a narcissist and you had to do everything that she said in order to keep the peace right. But then we don't know the history beyond that. So how do we know if that's ancestral or not. Guess what we will have. This witch wound that's happening in the background, that might be a thing we might have. Just the general oppression of women in society, that might be a thing. Like this is so multifaceted.

Speaker 1: 20:51

Until I work with you one-to-one or like we're in a group setting or whatever, like you're in one of my challenges or I don't know, whatever it is like if you're going to come to my events again, whatever it is, until I get my hands on you, babe, I don't know. I can't give you the exact answers I wish I could, but literally all the people who listen to this podcast, I can't give one answer that's going to fit all, because one thing could be linked to so many different things. And it's not until I have that assessment with you, not until we start working together, not until we, like, open everything up and we take a look at things that we can look at. Okay, and you know, part of the shadow.

Speaker 1: 21:29

Work is about accepting the parts of yourself that you know that you are less desirable and you integrate them as one person and you move from feeling unsafe to safe, so that you can be seen, so that you can show up, so that you can be confident, so you can speak your truth, so you don't have to worry about being rejected all the time. Or if somebody doesn't text you back, you're not completely freaking out, being like, oh my god, did I say something wrong. Or when somebody says, hey, I need to talk, that you go into a complete fight or flight mechanism where you're like, oh my god, I need to talk now because I'm completely freaking the fuck out. Okay, like it's about avoiding all of that type of stuff. Then we have have like connecting with feminine energy. Okay, honour your feminine types, like the wise woman, the healer, the goddess. Do some goddess connection work, but do it properly. I'm sure I've done an episode on this, but make sure if you're doing goddess connection work, you know how to invoke them and you know how to put them back.

Speaker 1: 22:24

Very important, okay, you may want to just even connect with nature more. I've been going to the woods more. I know that we're going into that autumn. I love the season of change. I don't love the weather. Don't love the weather, this rain and the cold, not a fan. But I love seeing the leaves change and connect with nature. It makes me feel like I'm in a much deeper flow whenever I can.

Speaker 1: 22:45

You may want to practice herbal medicine, like herbs and different sort of plants are so amazing. And when I say plant medicine, no, I'm not talking about weed or ayahuasca, I'm talking about just your general plants like roses. Rose water is really really good for different things, and you've got mint that's good for different things, like they have different purposes. So experimenting with like practical herbal medicine could be could be really really good. You may wanna connect to your heritage. For example, I'm Celtic, oh, I'm fucking Celtic through and through. Guys Like, yeah, I'm Celtic, irish, celtic, English, celtic, welsh, all the way fucking through. Okay, cannot help that. And yeah, with that, connecting to your traditions that make you feel good, right, connecting to your heritage, that makes you feel good.

Speaker 1: 23:29

Also, like, get into a state of flow. When are you creative, when are you being playful? When are you being fun? If you're not, then you need to create this, you know, create space in your life for that getting rid of stress. And you know, join women's circles, join your spiritual communities, find your spiritual tribe, who you can be authentically yourself with. You know, be a part of a supportive group that helps you to break the cycle of fear and isolation. Just find your people group that helps you to break the cycle of fear and isolation. Just find your people, babe. Find your people, okay.

Speaker 1: 24:02

And when we're talking about healing your ancestors, like you need to explore your ancestral lineage. You know you can do that in many different ways and the key thing that you can do with this is to recognize a problem, pattern or behavior. This is how you start to break it. Okay, again, like I I said, not until we're one-to-one I'm not going to be able to give you an individual answer on what you need to do. Okay, because this is deep, deep work that we're pulling out. We're pulling out from the shadows. I'm going to just use that term, even though I hate it.

Speaker 1: 24:29

Um, and when we start to break these generational cycles, which are also called generational curses by the way they're you know generational cycles, which are also called generational curses by the way they're you know, generational cycles and curses get thrown around a lot. There are general ancestral curses. So, for example, if you had a medicine woman in your family and she did make a promise to the dark arts or to a dark entity to have more power in her lifetime, and that would mean that the rest of the ancestral line would suffer or would sacrifice their first grandchild, whatever it is. Um, that can be done. Okay, that is a thing that has happened. I've worked with many people who have needed to do that.

Speaker 1: 25:05

Actually, somebody who I was seeing recently, um, he had massive like, like I could see. It was like his great-grandmother had petitioned a dark entity to have more power in her life. She was from Uganda. You know, uganda are very common for their witch doctors. She was a witch doctor, but she was a menacing woman and like, yeah, and then all the grandchildren like all the great-grandchildren have all had very weird bad things happen in their life. So, yeah, so we had to do some ancestral cord cutting and various other things that we needed to do. Um, so, yeah, lol, obviously I would date somebody who needed ancestral healing. Obviously, um, you know, like, when you just see things and you're like, oh babe, why can't you just be like, why is this a thing? Why is this a thing? But, yeah, he's a lot happier now and that was really good. Um, so, yeah, when we're breaking those generational cycles, we're like we're choosing right. We're choosing to not pass down pain, same behaviors, same emotions, all that stuff. We're passing down abundance, we're passing down opportunities. We're living the life our ancestors couldn't and, like you, have no idea how like powerful that is.

Speaker 1: 26:20

And you know somatic healing is a huge part of this as well. So trauma is often stored in the body. So somatic therapy like actual somatic workouts I love the workout, which she's amazing. Follow her on instagram like I shouldn't know I exist, but I just generally love her. You know she helps to release trauma that you don't necessarily need to know to be released in your body. Then there's yoga, there's breathwork, there's MDM, emdr, which is eye movement, desensitization and reprocessing. You've got your EFT tapping. You've got, you know, general energy healing as well, which is a somatic practice. So you've got quite a few things which are like going on, which you can use to release the trauma, even if you don't know the source yourself. Okay.

Speaker 1: 27:05

And when we talk about healing the other child, oh god, baby, you know you gotta validate, you gotta learn to accept, get more playful, be, get into a stage of reparenting yourself, okay. And how does you? How does womb healing help with all of this? Well, it helps through just being that ancestral portal to be able to clear out the emotions that are stuck in your hips, okay. We're talking about improving your menstrual cycle. We're talking about addressing any sexual trauma. We're talking about addressing any anything that's ever felt like a violation like this all gets stuck in our hips, okay.

Speaker 1: 27:42

And yeah, when you're going through all of this stuff and you're kind of thinking where do I start, I would recommend booking a session with me or booking with somebody that you feel really drawn to, whatever, because this is a really big can of wounds to open.

Speaker 1: 27:56

And when you know you're looking at ancestral healing in a child and your womb, like to be able to get all that in one place is like literally unheard of and like this isn't.

Speaker 1: 28:05

This is just not even like the tip of the iceberg of the shit that I know in terms of like rituals, cord cutting, shamanic practices uh, reiki, energy healing, energy dynamics um, in terms of just so much stuff. There's just so much stuff, okay, and this just comes from, like my own spiritual journey comes from so like, yeah, just comes from so much stuff. So I'm going to stop there, because I kind of went off on one about how you heal, how these things are like super important and, yeah, just know that I'm coming to you with so much love on this topic. You know I never aim to offend anybody when I talk about this stuff. I always aim to raise awareness, to heal people, to help people see things from a different perspective. So if I helped you to see things from a different perspective, or you just fucking hate me, send me a message. I want to know, I want to know. Catch me on Instagram and I will catch you here next Monday Sending you loads of love, mwah.